Iceland

This dream of mine

It started small

Ever so gradual

It grew into something

Something that won't be a dream

but a reality

It has grown into something that is no longer an interest

but a passion

My next destination: Iceland

"Á silfur á
Lýsir allan heiminn og augun blá
Skera stjörnuhiminn
Ég óska mér og loka nú augunum
Já, gerðu það, nú rætist það"

"On a silver river
Illuminating the whole world, and the blue eyes
Cut the starry sky
I make a wish and now close my eyes
Yes, do that, now it comes true"

I remember those nights

I remember those nights where we would go to Betos to get food at 2:00 in the morning. I remember when we would crash on the couch watching Family Guy. I remember when you would want to take a drive with me, even when we had no where to go. I remember how much you convinced me to go get McDonalds with you, even though I was behind on my math homework. That math homework isn't important anymore. Do you still remember those moments? That was back when you were still here, and I want to let you know that the void still hasn't been filled. You were my best friend, you were there for me, you were almost a part of me.

You will be back.

But that day. The day that you will be back. It seems a lot longer away then it actually is.

It doesn't feel like you will be back. The emails just don't feel real anymore. They are just words without a face behind them. They are as empty as I feel.

I just need to know, do you remember? Are your memories of us as vivid as mine? Do you hold them as close as I do?

I know you remember. I saw it in your eyes. I felt it in your tremble. I heard it in your voice, I heard it in your voice when you said "Goodbye".

I thought I had stitched the scars shut, permanently

But the blood began to ooze through the stitchings once again

It's a pain that I had wished to forget

But somehow it found its way back into my life

Now I sleep with my eyes open, again

The forgotten miner